The Big Doubt - Pasheer and the Lost Middle World
For many of my future big projects log entry, I am also going to incorporate how I feel along the way, document it in this blog as human as I can feel. This is so that whoever is seeing my whole project process, they are able to see many of my big doubts and also how I'm just simply pushing through.
There is no magical solutions, I just simply persist and try my best! There is always a better tomorrow!
During my way home, a thought just formed in my head
It was a small, whisper.
"You know that the project is too big right? Remember when you even tried to make a servo moved with your own little programming and you stressed out about it? I totally remember that times where I have miserably failed on many of my engineering project back in uni. None of it worked as long as I wanted, or I'll end up breaking it
But the only difference is that, I am a working woman with a job. Unlike University times, I can set deadlines as much as I can and I will always be working on the same project within my pace.
And then here comes the bigger question
"Why do I always keep making big project, that is usually out of my realm? Why not just make smaller parts then I will jump into the actual project when I am 'good enough' ?"
That 'good enough' never comes to me. I set real project, and if I come across a big wall, I will solve the problem and still doing the real and practical project. It will be imperfect for sure, but here's the thing:
The reason why I'm doing big project is so that it will humble me. it's not to prove my skill worth, or even prove someone else how skilled I am in a craftmanship
Yes, it is simply to learn more and it allows me to realize there is so much to learn! And it always really excites me that I often have something to look forward to!
The main reason why I am starting this blog as a way to record documentation of any kind including, even how I feel as a human and an artist. Not as someone who people would put a pedestal on. But as a fellow human like you.
Of course it's taking into consideration that whoever reading my documentation is going to be specific for fellow artists/craft people. People who actually would engage more deeply into the craft. This is not a marketing platform after all. It is, simply a blog.
Another blockade and friction in this project, specifically on the Wax Horse Head creature is that, if it will take more time than usual.
This is why, I started this project . I want to slowly trust myself that I will definitely get this done as long as I wanted to, something of a proof that I have started and finished something although it is imperfect.
Just walk slow and move your feet forward, one step at a time
That's all for the project documentation about how I feel here, I hope you are looking forward to the next one, with more photos!